I get a kick out of using this blog for things other than theology and politics.
I had a turn for the worse and then for the better again. It really bothers me to think of myself as dependent on medication to feel 'normal', but its the case, at least for now. I had to switch up what I was taking (with the doctor's consultation of course) and for the first time in maybe two months, I've had three days I'd call "baseline". Crazy. I've been able to just enjoy things I normally enjoy, get out of bed without 45 minutes of effort, and feel ok for more than a few minutes a day.
I'm fine with knowing that I have asthma and having to use an inhaler at least once a day. I'm even fine with having a slightly weird spine that means I get back pain periodically and I have to take painkillers for that. But thinking of myself as someone who has to take a little pink pill in order to feel like a human being...that is hard to swallow.
In the meantime, I find that I can write again, and I feel motivated to do things for the first time in a couple of months, which is a great change. And my friends, coworkers and wife can get a break from hearing me whine, which will be nice for them.
I might even talk about theology or politics.